i m so tired today....feel so so worn out.3 years ago today....seem so far away,so different.i realised i have lost so much.lose my passions,lose my anger,lose my energy.lose my colored hair even.lose my mind.i have cease to become the seeker,i became the sought.everything seem so normal,so mandane.
day in day out,its all the same.i have become normal.wat i have always resisted.no more crazier than the person sitting next to me on a train.no more chain-smoking,no more drunken nites,no more bloody fights.no more staying up all nite and sleeping all day....now,i m afraid to die(i think),now i dun take chances,no more leaving it all to fate.no more leaping off the bridge into the singapore river.why?what do i fear?fear itself??
wat have i become??i have grown older but not wiser.i dun have dreams anymore.becos i dun dare to dream,or i jux feel that they wont happen...is it all too late,or is there still a chance to go back,do i wanna go back??wat is it?wat is it?can someone tell me?no,i dun wanna anyone to tell me,afraid of the things that i might hear.
i m so so tired.....